The Worry Mask…
Worry is an emotion in which a person feels anxious or concerned about a real or imagined issue…
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Worry
I’ve written about guilt in parenting and that guilt is an attempt to change the past. I can’t. The past is gone. But what about the future?
There’s so much potential for failure! As a single parent, there’s no one standing beside me to share the blame. I can’t look over to a husband and say “Well, he…” or even “Well, we…” It’s just me and that makes me wonder, is worry just a way for me to avoid being responsible for my decisions? Is it just a way to mask a deeper issue? Am I afraid of responsibility? Ouch!
“Responsibility is the ability to respond.”
Not respond perfectly, just respond. But what if my response isn’t the right one? What if I’m *GASP* wrong? Is my fear of responsibility just a mask to hide my perfectionism?
I love being right and despise being wrong, especially if someone else points it out! I used to enjoy being a perfectionist. Then I had children. Children have no problem pointing out when I do something wrong. And, I can take it from the kids, usually. Is my perfectionism a mask for something else? Oh, no! Say it isn’t so…
